The passing of Lou Lou

This happened at a time when I was having problems with my local council in London. They wanted my flat back. It was a terrible time, the fear of having nowhere to live, no money and no one to turn to. The local council worker took it upon herself to send a letter saying if I got rid of my dog (a beautiful rotweiller) there was a good chance I could keep the flat. So I discussed it with my partner at that time, he was very upset, as were all the family. We decided it was for the best. We took her to an animal shelter with a very good reputation, which I found out about; it was in the countryside, about a two hours drive from our home.

It was a Monday morning, when we took Lou Lou to the shelter. Shaun wouldn't go in; he stayed in the car, while I went in with her. The people were very kind and said they would find a good home for her. Lou Lou just looked at me. I gave her a cuddle and told her how much I loved her. I left with tears in my eyes and feeling angry that someone could make us do this, just to have a roof over our heads.

The next day I rang the animal shelter. The lady on the other end of the phone said Lou Lou hasn't settled down yet but I am sure she will be fine. Then on the Wednesday I rang again but I couldn't get through, I tried several times, there was no reply. On Thursday I tried again and got through and spoke to another lady who worked there, she said Lou Lou was put down the day before, she would not settle, kept trying to bite everyone.

Why didn't you ring me I said? Once you had given her to us it was our responsibility to do what was right under the circumstances. I put the phone down, tears rolling down my face. I wasn't meant to get her back, and she didn't want to be with anybody else either, she got her wish I thought.

I didn't tell Shaun for many years, as I knew he would be very upset. God knows, if I knew what was happening I would have gone to get her. I felt her spirit could be with us any time, she wanted to be close. After that the council didn't let me keep my home anyway, but eventually I moved to another area in London, where my Nan and granddad had once lived. It was a much nicer area. It took a while to find a new home, because I had no money. I prayed and prayed for help knowing I only had a few days left before I had to leave my flat. Then my prayers were answered, I met this young man that worked for an estate agent, he had a flat available and said I could have the flat and pay off the deposit over a period of time.

What a relief, however I did realise how God and Lou Lou had helped me to get my new home, because while searching for a home I realised that the landlords didn't allow any pets, even the flat I moved into, pets were not allowed. Spirit was paving the pathway for me. The move was the beginning of my true spiritual journey.