My journey was a slow one, in fact it took years. The people I tried to heal would say they felt relaxed and even a little better but that wasn't enough for me, I really wanted to help others and kept asking myself how hard could this be? God knows how much I lovex and wanted to heal people and surely this is what the spirit world wanted too! Eventually I realised the guides had taken me the long way round so I could really see all the signs, taking me though every step so I truly understood healing and of course myself. I can see that so many people start working as healers not knowing what they are doing or seeking to understand the true meaning of a spiritual healer.
I must admit, at first when I was watching the mediums on the platform in the church I thought maybe I can do that especially because I came to have the ability to talk to people, but I soon realised that healing was for me. After the services I would sit in the back of the church and watch the healers work and think how wonderful it must be to heal someone, to be a channel for God's healing. I felt humble to witness this pure act of love amongst two fellow human beings. So with a bit of a push I came to believe that I could possibly be a healer and it wasn't long before I started my journey.
At first I found it quite hard, I knew I was dedicated and yet I often questioned myself and would constantly ask the guides for their help even when I didn't know who they were. I would often hear from others who had started healing that they felt tingles in their hands or saw colour and had other experiences and I kept thinking how lucky they were to have such a precious gift.
One of greatest lessons in the journey to becoming a healer was "how can I heal anyone when I needed to understand my own thoughts and feelings?" How can I be a clear channel for my spirit guides when I don't have peace within myself? Even though I was healing and doing quite a good job I still hadn't reached a level where I felt I was really making a difference.
I knew the spirit guides at times could bypass some of the negative vibrations I may have had, but it was important for me to clear my channels and to do this I had to work on my own spiritual development. By that I mean I had to release my own emotions and embrace life unconditionally, this took some time but I got there in the end or at least I found my peace.
No one really has all the answers to life or even fully understands themselves, but I am glad I never gave in as I have learned so much and maybe that was part of the course I had to take.
I now feel I have reached a good level of understanding and am pleased to say that my guides work very well through me and to complement the healing the words that I speak seem to have a huge healing affect. Even my voice has changed to a much lighter tone, people often would say when I speak it feels like the words goes straight into their hearts and suddenly it all makes sense.
What I would also like to say is I am not perfect but none of us are, but I know who I am, I know our God does not judge us as we do a fine job of judging ourselves, I never stop learning and I certainly enjoy it. I am happy with me, I never worry about what people think of me as no one is without fault, I know my intentions are good and I only speak with love in my heart. I know I am in a good place because all that is around me is wonderful, this is my reflection.
Many years ago I made a deal with God, bring me the people I can help not the ones I can't as I appreciate that not everyone is ready to move on, and no matter how much you try and help they cannot accept. This is when prayers are the answer because in time most people seek peace.
These are my thoughts, feelings and sensations during healing.
First of all I open with prayer and ask God to allow me to channel for his love and then I call upon my guides and helpers. Within my prayers I express my feelings and wishes, asking for peace and well-being for the person that has come for healing. I also call upon healers that have passed over especially if they had areas of expertise, these may not be my guides but as soon as you call them they will come because they'll still continue to heal even in the heavenly realms and are only too happy to assist. It's just like making a phone call, the minute you think of them with good intentions they know and will link in or at least part of their essence will.
I ask for protection so that I don't take on the person's vibration or symptoms for too long, as I often feel in my own body where the person's pain is or which chakra point or energy wheel is clogged and as soon as I feel the discomfort I ask my guides to take it away which they always do..
When I start to heal I sometimes feel the guides or loved ones standing close or feel them so close it's like they're almost walking through me. I also know they are there because my ears ache but at the same time my ears ache when spiritual energies are flowing or activated around me. The feeling I usually get is a mass of tingles in my hands or the same sensation flowing over parts of my own body, as the saying goes the hair on my arms stand up.
I can also feel a pulsating or stinging or pulling sensation and sometimes it feels like a laser beam coming off my fingers to the area that needs healing. My hands can really ache at times yet again I ask for this sensation to be taken away. My hands become very hot and on occasions cold.
There is the creaky door sensation, this is when my hands are at the side of the person's head and when I move them I feel the vibration of an old creaky door being opened, and this means to me the person has psychic abilities. Then there are times I feel a buzzing sensation on my forehead which usually means their third eye is opening.
At times I experience involuntary movements in my hands when my hands are in the person's aura, I am still unsure what this means but it could be the healing energies against negative energies as they clear or my hands are tuning in to the person's energy field.
Some people that come for healing are stressed or not very relaxed, this can be felt by my eyes and head as I am healing. My eyes start to flutter and I feel pressure on the top of my head, but sure enough as they relax my eyes and head calm down.
When my hands are in the aura especially around the head, it feels like a balloon, at times I feel grooves in the aura and my hands feel wedged or they can even slip in the grooves.
There are the tears that just roll down my face, sometimes I feel their sadness and sometimes the tears come without any emotions, this is probably a release of negative energies from the person receiving healing.
When I am giving healing I usually see electric blue on the person or around the room, this is the main colour which my guides tend to use. There are other colours such as grass green or cerise pink I sometimes see. When I see sparks of white light in the room, this shows me that there are spirit beings present.
I usually see a white outline around the person's body which is their aura.
Sometimes I feel like I am in a light trance or enter into tunnel vision and mist can form in the room where I am healing, I think this though is part of the conditions myself and the guides seem to need to work in.
I never feel tired, in fact I feel energised, after all I have been working with God's love that has flown through my channels and I'm glad to say I very rarely become unwell. Healers only get tired if they heal with their own energy or feel weak in themself before they start to heal.
There was a time when I gave a friend some healing and I felt very dizzy, then I realised he had been drinking, unfortunately the affects of the alcohol was in his aura and I felt it. This I watch for now and advise anyone giving healing not to give healing to anyone that has been drinking or taken drugs because the healer is exposed. The same time it would be hard for the healing to penetrate through the aura that is saturated with another substance.
One of the strangest healings I experienced was when a lady came in to the ladies clothes shop where I was working saying that she was pregnant, she wanted some healing so she wouldn't lose the child as this had happened before. I started to give the lady healing and then I felt the strangest feeling in my stomach, it felt like a baby gently kicking inside me just like when I carried my children. The healing finished and the lady left and then the next day she called me and said she was driving home and a bright light filled the car, she pulled the car over feeling quite overwhelmed but again I'm not sure what happened but she certainly had a spiritual experience and months later she had her lovely baby.
I probably spend from 10 minutes to half an hour doing the actual healing, within that time I am tune into what is taking place but there are times my thoughts may drift of to things that have nothing to do with the healing. I quickly pull my thoughts back; this can't be helped at times as we all have active minds. What is most important is that there are not negative ones.
What does give me food for thought is if I have appointments for healing on the week of my monthly cycle, the people tend to ring up and cancel or that particular week goes quite apart from a few people making appointments. My only conclusion is that during that time my energy field is unbalanced which leaves me slightly vulnerable and open. I feel my guides protect me at this time, maybe because my channels are not as clear as they should have been, so the healing would not be as powerful or I could invite unwanted vibrations. This has changed now and even my cycle has become more gentle so that I hardly notice the lead up to it, I heal through this time as I feel in harmony with myself. I guess my mind is much stronger now that I am in control over the cycle and not the other way round.
I have been working as a healer for many years now and am still trying to work out what certain sensations mean, but half the time I haven't got a clue what is taking place or why I feel the way I do. I just accept and have faith that the guides know what the person needs on every level - mind, body and spirit - this is probably the best way. When we think about it too much we just get in the way, I have found that just by making myself available to channel without much thought has achieved the best results in healing. For a few years I tried using different tools mentally and physically to heal but all I did was confuse things as for me simplicity is the answer. I still pray and seek to achieve the highest levels of healing; this is my dedication to the great creator and me.
These are some of my experiences and many of you may feel the same yet others will have different experiences and even greater. Enjoy the journey and never give up as your guides need you because you are closer to the earth plane and therefore closer to your fellow human beings. If they could descend and work in these heavy vibrations they would but can't, unfortunately this is the energy that has been created on our earth and we need to help change it.
God Bless you, Tracy